think before we advise?

November 11 2008..
holiday pass around 1 and half month..
and everyday i spend around 17 hours infront of computer playing games...
if my dad know it, he sure will scold and talk bunch of theory to me...
as a youngster, i should could not accept what he said...
this is because i feel that everyone will have their own interest or addicted to something..
just like them..
my dad smokes...
everyday will more than a packet..
i keep tell him that smoke no good for health just like he told me play games will affect my study..
so i feel that he had no qualified to give any advise..
corect huh??
i felt it correct since i was very young but until 1 day..
i realised it was wrong!!!
11 years ago...
a little baby born...
and he is the first baby that younger than me in my family..(i was youngest in my family)
looking at him day by day growing up..
making me worry about his future..
when the time i saw him sit infront of pc..
i will advise him not too play too much game cause it would affect his study..
but when think back...
do i really have qualified to said so??
and now i know how my dad feel at the moment...
the feel of sorry start to spread around my mind..
so i swear to myself..
no matter what my dad said in the future..
no comment!!!
just smile, knock head and agree~
=)
jia you..

my room's wish..

my life filled with game this few weeks..
sometime i went to my friends house using their computer since my house lagging..
everytime when i back, i would had to wait for 1 or 2 minutes for the lift to reach ground floor..
in the other situation, when i going out, the lift seem like waiting for me to press at the button..
ready and waitng me to go out...
im thinking...
do my room hate me so much and hope i go out and not return home??
everytime when i back, he seem delaying my time to reach him..
while when i ready to go out, my room seem excited and want to send out as soon as possible..

crack floor..

few weeks ago, the balcony's floor was crack due to weather change...
i step on it very carefully during collecting my cloth that hang at balcony..
as a result, the floor cut my leg..
since that, i forget the incident and collect my cloth as usual everyday..
few days ago, i realise that i do not cut my leg...
the floor is crack like before..
i simply walk out but the floor do not left any wound on my leg..
is this because the floor had change??
or my leg was adapted to the crack floor so would not cut by it again??
i do not know..
but someone told me before..
Penang people have a very high adaptability no matter in what condition..
i feel its right..
even in relationship problem, i feel we could handle without affect our own seriously..
at least i did not heard any of my friend was very down and give up everything around them when they brake with their partner...

most pain..

what is the most pain feeling??
is when the one we love telling other that they love them...
or when we look at the one we love treat other they love good..

identity..

sometime if our real identity or memory is gone for temporary..
it may be a good thing...
just like the movie..
=)

question..

i had think for few days..
if someone who willing to quarrel with other cause of us...
what this mean??

darkness behind pearl..

few days ago, my coursemate organize a trip to penang..
derrick, keat and me drive each car and fetch 17 people round the island..
during the trip, most of us sick..
my stomach not feeling very well because i went to Segamat and Malacca before i came back to Penang..
i ate a lot of food in Segamat and Malacca..
i really enjoy those trips...
i feel very happy...
but...
at the final day of Penang trip..
when the time we sent them to bus stop...
looking at them from outside of the bus...
the feel very uncomfortable..
we wave our hand to each others..
feel like this is the last wave from them i can ever seen...
the feeling of scare spread out from my heart..

stupid!!!

argh!!!!
i hate this feeling...
eveytime when this feeling present..
i sure will think irrationally..
my stupid immature thinking will take over me..
i really hate it!!!!
i hate of myself!!!
i want to overcome it..
delete it forever from my personality!!!!
please help me..
i scare fail....
T_T

reject..

i feel happy with my life now...
but..
everytime when i lie on my bed..
i feel like i lost something..
lost something that i would never get it back..
something that might very important...
i do not know what is it...
i feel like to reject everything...

i reject...
i reject every incident that happen around me..
i reject every properties around me...
i reject to become one of friend among others...
i reject to born as a youngest son in my family...
i reject to act my role as a human in the world..
i reject to exist as a dust in the universe...
i reject...

i do not know why..

dream first step..

after having my OM exam..
me and my few coursemate went to one of their hometown seremban..
i do a lot of careless mistake during the exam..
actually i expect could get B..
but now i think max will only get C...
although very sad..
but after i came back from seremban 1 day trip, i feel better..
finally i get closer to one of my dream in university life..
the dream is to visit all my friend's hometown around whole Malaysia..
=)
and today i went to first place that far from my hometown..
all of us feel tired because study till very late yesterday..
pity my friend yonghong..
he had to drive us 45 minute to eat fu yong sao pao..
and then another 45 minute to back to his hometown..
feel so happy cause i could serve those sao pao as i wish for long time ago..
after eat, we went to daren's house..
we had some rest there..
we rest around half hour there and yong hong brought us to a temple near by..
the temple was so amazing..
there are 12 statues chinese horoscope..
they look life..
after spend around half hour there, we went to yonghong house..
where our main destination..
haha..
daren and yonghong parent are nice..
they gave us drink and moon cake..
=)
we decide to have our dinner by having ikan bakar..
but when the time we reach there, the shop do not open..
so we go to another shop near by..
this is the first time they visit the shop..
and they do not whether the food there is nice or not..
quite dissapointed..
haha..
we back to pj after dinner...
thanks to yonghong...
=)

afraid..

do you afraid of lost someone??
besides my family..
i think i do not have one now..
is that mean i do not know how to love??


if we love..
we afraid to lost..
if we love..
we afraid they hurt..
if we love..
we afraid they change..
if we love..
we afraid they unhappy..
argh...
so many thing to think and scare..

sometime i rather do not know how to love..
without love then we do not need to worry..
i envy of my parent...
my dad could protect my mum for so many years..
he never speak with loud voice with her before..
could i do the same thing in future??
i hope i could..
i hope i could find someone like my mum too..
easy to happy and do not think too much..
=)

mooncake festival..

as usual i come back home alone in the mid night..
normally i feel scare...
scare to meet robbers??
or scare to meet ghost??
actually both..
hehe...
but do not know why..
just now i had no feeling at all...
maybe i could feel the moon is watching us tonight..
happy mooncake festival..
=)

hot..

1.18 am...
i could not place my body at a good position to have a good sleep..
i feel so hot and uncomfortable..
after reading and memorise for few days..
finally i could get some rest..
but after i wake up tommorow morning..
i had to work hard again..
all people are worry about their exam..
of course i am one of them...
ops..
my roomate back..
i beeter get some sleep..
nitez..

memory~

3 days ago is my friend birthday..
he used to be my best friend in primary and secondary..
i did not send any sms to him although i notice his birthday..
i heard that he change a lot..
he had follow his family to believe in their religion..
they move to Johor when we are in form 3..
he become another one since that day..
i do not dare to sms him..
i do not know what to said..
we use to talk a lot rubbish last time..
but now the way he talk changed too..
i sms with him before..
the first message replied by him is "hows ur life?"..
i was stunned that time...
haha...
this is because the word is too serious between us..
i miss all my good friend in secondary school..
i never forget the foot print they left in my life..
=)
and now..
there are another group of friends to steping in my life..
thanks to you all...
i would never forget the day we go through before no matter ex schoolmate or coursemate..
i hope there is a hard disk could store all my memory...
^^

request with no reply..

after feel down for several days..
the moody disappear today...
i not sure why..
maybe because my request was finally fulfill by my friend ah loke after i request from several friends but there is no reply..
hahaha...
and you know what is the request??
is...
i wish to have mooncake that in "nien yong" flavour!!!

i happy not actually because i could have the mooncake..
it is because at least i know that there is someone willing to answer me when i make a request..
=)
thanks to him..
and now i could study for tommorow's final exam and i hope i never too late..
hehe...
actually need thanks to yong hong(another nick called hero) too(one of loke housemate and also my coursemate).
cause i ate one of his mooncake yesterday..
xD
now i want go bath and prepare for my study..
wish me good luck ya..
i'll be back...
>.<

value of gift..

when i was young..
i feel that a gift is judge through the price..
no matter, what it is..
as long as expensive and it is a good gift..
few years ago..
i had change my mind...
i feel that gift should be something that like by the one we going to give..
so in this state, price does matter to a gift..
but now..
i feel that gift should be something that we like..
always give other things that we like to other..
even a small candy..
it also consider as a gift..
but do REMEMBER..
only give other those we like...
and do not give other if we DO NOT like it...

dependency..

"find a pretty and sexy girl friend"...
"find a handsome boy friend"..
these words are often heard by me during secondary school from all my friends..
normally during secondary school even in university or in other word..
non mature stage, people often find a partner that have a good out look..
but i think..
when come to other stage (mature)..
human will look for those who are loyal and who could give themselve feel safe when become their partner..
this is because human will seek for their life partner...
as long as they could stay with them,
protect each other, trust each other and care each other..
then that will be just fine to fulfill their requirement to become a life partner..
so for those who still in immature stage..
please do consider the statement i wrote..
do not because of out look and give up someone that who really appreciate you...

silent guardian...

4.57 am..
sudenlly remember the song of Guang Liang (Tong Hua)..
in the song mention that he would like to transform into a pair of wing..
and become a guardian of the gal...
firstly i feel that it is stupid..
wing normally attach behind of someone..
so no matter what he did..
the gal will never realise...
today i realise..
i prefer to be a pair of wing too..
become of a silent guardian of the one i love..
it is not a matter whether she realise what i did or not..
as long as she give u a smile from her heart..
i feel that it is worth...
although open my palm and let her go..
seek for her happiness and the one she love..
i would happy too...
this is because i hope she happy than i do..
and never regret with her decision...

response...

when we hold the hand of someone we love...
feel their hand..
if they do give you response...
or hold your hand tighly..
they love you just like you do..
but if not...

perfection..

some people feel that grape that they could not have
is always not nice...
but for me..
the thing i never get is always the best..
that's why she is always perfect in my heart...
8 years...

lost...

i heard of a story just now...
they said that the more we like or love a thing...
the more we afraid to lost it...
if it really do..
i rather i will never had it before..
because i afraid of pain and sad...

romantic definition...

almost 1 week i do not type any word in my blog..
so many thing happen and i not really remember..
until today i decide to place my finger on keyboard and start blog again..
during dinner, i feel the dinner was so cold..
no people speak and no laugh sound..
i do not know why..
some of them seem like hiding something behind their wall..
maybe i could guess what happening..
on the way back to home, one of my friend told me that
watching firework is some kind of romantic event...
she said that everyone will automatically smile when looking at firework...
but my the other friend do not feel the same way..
from this 2 gal, i could feel that different gal has different definition of "romantic" in their mind..
one of them feel that romantic is from a scenario...
like enjoying the firework or having a candle night dinner together..
another one i not sure..
but i think should be romantic in term of words or phrase...
for me..
no matter what, as long as anything done by the one we love..
then it consider romantic..
even buy me cup of water..
then i would be happy and feel romantic..
haha...
today is 31th...
i could not eat baskin robin ice cream because i over spend this month...
i had to wait another 2 month to eat it..
T_T
hope this 2 month will faster pass so i could have it...

cold...

this two days i spend most of my time in room alone..
maybe is due to raining..
i felt so cold whole day and night..
time show 1.08 am and its time for me to go bed again...
but i scare..
scare i would wake up in the mid night...
wake up cause of cold...
shivering...
and the most scary thing for me is..
i do not bring any blanket from my hometown..
T_T

Fake..

firstly i thought that we could express everything in blog..
our happiness and sadness could be written in here..
few days ago my friend told me he worry about something..
but he not dare to write in blog because someone may read and misunderstand...
and now i feel it quite true..
not everything we could write in here..
especially when something we do not want other to know..
haha...
maybe some day i will create a new blog that no one know and write about it..
=)

hope..

be cruel...
and never give any hope if there is not..
the receiver of message will automatically step backward..

2nd anniversary...

feel so tired..
today i'm so happy..
i went to sunway pyramid today..
and i do my first ice skating in my whole life..
^^
during skating i fall down a lot of times and my back side so pain and cold..
i hurt my leg too since the way i skate and stand with the shoe is incorrect..
although very pain..
but i felt its worth..
the first time i step into the ice floor, i can't even stand..
and slowly i could slide my first inch to front and this make me so happy...
haha...
my friend Loke fall down together with me during skating haha...
derrick teaching erica while ccc (my roomate) and ming lee (a new couple) learning together..
after skate till 8 something, other coursemate were gathered and waiting for us for dinner..
oh ya.. forget to mention that today is our class 2nd anniversary in UTAR..
time pass so fast..
we already in final year...
i sure will miss all of them after graduate..
we went to mahanttan fish to celebrate our anniversary..
the food is so nice but expensive..
i think each of us ate almost rm 40...
today i feel so happy and enjoy..
but i wondering how about others...
are they happy as i do??
i hope they do..
the most sad thing for me is...
i could not eat the cheese prawn i want...
T_T
the special of the prawn is the cheese was burnt and the test is nice...
haiz...
nvm..
i will go eat next time with ah loke because he has the sticker that give us discount of 10%...
xD

The Only One..

the night so quiet...
suddenly feel very empty..
i close my eye and look around...
there is no one stand besides me...
but when i look deeper..
there is a dark shadow standing there...
giving me advices and support when i need...
i could not imagine what happen if the shadow disappear...
before it lost...
i hope i could appreciate it..
i would...
please do not give up of me...
thank you my friend...

equilibrium..

sometime i feel the world is fair..
if you expect something from others..
you need to pay them the same price as u expect...
so if you decide to give up me..
i would do the same thing...
vice versa...

how should love??

my friend from hometown call me yesterday..
he told me about his problem in love..
i listen of it before i come to KL during internship..
i had a bit confuse now..
does he really love his gf?
i not sure..
the way he told me, how he love his gf, how he treat her good..
i feel like he actually is not..
vice versa..
i do not feel like his gf love him too..
quite confusing huh..
i wondering how would you treat someone that you love??
how is the best way to love??
=.=
i do not know..

nephews...

During in hometown..
i think a lot of thing to write..
but when reach here..
i do not know what to write..
haha...
before come back, i said good bye to my newphew who is 1 and half years old..
firstly he though i was kidding to him so he wave his hand to me..
but when the time he saw i walk out from house with my bags,
he start to cry..
i heard it and this make me feel like want to stay few more hours to accompany him...
although it is a tough time to take care of him..
but after refresh my mind, its a funny scene and sweet memory..
he not good in talking yet..
but he good in running and explore everything in my house...
he always take everything from my house...
sometime he play with it and sometime throw it.. =.=
tv remote, my sister handphone, my wallet, all where spoil by him..
if i was still same as last time...
i sure scold him and beat him..
but as my age grow...
feel like beat and scold is not a good idea to teach children haha..
pity my second sister's son cause i use to scold him last time..
but of course i love all my nieces and nephews... haha...
when the time my nephew cry..
i not dare to go back into house..
because i know that i may prefer to stay another while if i saw his tears..
haha...
lucky i take some video of him 2 days ago..
now when i miss him i can play it back..
xD

Hope..

How i hope the one she miss is me...
but everything is too late..

Neglecting...

After a busy weekend..i though everything will settle down after we pass up all out assignment..
but the thing go not as smooth as i though...
no matter how i hard i try to help my friends...
but i had neglect some of them..
on saturday one of my coursemate ask me to send him my java source code..
unfortunately i could not finish it and i told him..
"wait.. after i modify i will send u k"..
this word make me become a bad guy..
but its ok...
because i use to be a bad guy..
after i told him that, i went to my another friend (ah loke) house..
i finalize my coding around sunday late evening and that time, ah loke's housemate (my coursemate) came back from hometown..
they do not start any thing yet..
so i was asked to help and teach them how to do...
once again i become a busy guy on that night..
but luckily ah loke done his thing..
so he teach other coursemate too..
i feel that he really learn a lot of java programming...
i had to help 3 to 4 people in the house...
finally i forget to send to the friend that i "promise" to send him on saturday..
on sunday night that friend talk to Derrick...
the words he used all like knife could cut through people's skin..
derrick told me and i immediately send him my coding..
but i do not know he receive or not because the internet line in that house is lagging...
i just drag the file and put in my chat box...
after that i was called by my coursemate because they having problem in doing assigment...
on the next day..
my friend keep repeating the words saying that "i will remember what u did to me!"
firstly i do not know whats that..
after think, i found that he is talking about me..
argh...
this make me sick because he keep repeating the same thing...
its let me feel annoying..
what can i do?
but it's really my fault that forget to send him..
i would like to said sorry to him..
but i know at this moment he sure wont accept...
its ok for me cause i use to be BAD GUY!
but if 1 day..
he make me fed up..
i sure will reply him..
"Yes i send all my answer to whole class and even friends from other course but not send to u!"
since he already take me as a selfish people..
but today i feel better..
because i realise..
there are still some friends who trust me..
=)
the more he feel that i'm selfish..
the better i will treat all my friends around..
especially my roommate who advise me yesterday...
thx cherng... ^^

stupidness and selfishness!!

omg...
after reading my friend's blog (keat)..
now only i realise how sad was him few days ago...
argh...
why i do not realise at all on that moment...
the reason he feel sad is because of the result...
the time after get the result..
i just sitting at my place and continue listening to lectures..
i do not go ask others marks...
this is because of the class get low marks...
...........
argh!!!!
i hate this feeling!!!
all people around look so down...
now think back make me no mood to continue my blog..
forget about that..
bye..

First system~

Become a human being is not that easy...
when u try to ask help from other, they will show u a face that make uncomfortable...
when people ask our help and and we do it late..
they will show us the same face also...
i though we are the one who should do that face...
above statement has nothing related to below statement.. xD

this few days is really a busy day...
time pass so fast...i could not even enjoy my weekend...
i stay at my friend (ah Loke)'s house more than at my house...
this is because all of us need to finish our java assignment..
we discuss for the assignment from morning until night..
(sometime we watch movie too.. hehe...)
there are three people in the house (include another ah loke's house mate Yeung)..
in that house only they two stay in PJ to do their assignment and the rest all back to hometown...
some of our coursemate come join too...
i was so happy this few days although we were busy..
i'am happy is because ah loke and yeung had improve their programming skill..
they make their own first programme..
although ah loke's coding quite messy but his interface is best among all of us..
haha...
yesterday i slept at 5.30 am and now wake up at 10am...
so feel like floating in the air...
need get some rest...
wish all my friends finish their assignment and get good marks for it...
=)

"Her"

"mum.."
i forget when is the last time i speak out this word...
some i really scare..
scare that the memory between me and my mum will lost forever..
so everytime when i free, i will try to recall back the memory...
but...
the memory was getting lesser and lesser...
i hate myself...
i do my memory so bad...
i often forget thing easily...
but there is some memory i could not forget in my mind forever...
i remember when i was in primary school, me wake up late and the bus is coming in 5 minutes..
i had to walk around 5 minutes to reach the place where bus fetch us...
mum was worry that i could not reach in time so try to bring me there...
i saw a woman who do not know how to drive bike carrying a bike..
her size was small and too weak to carry the bike...
but she do not want me to miss the bus so she had to try her best to send me there...
she carry the bike to outside of my house while i wearing my shoe..
the bike is too heavy for her and she accidentally fall down...
she hurt her knee and i can't do anything since i was too small that time...
i try to ask her no need to send me there...
skip a day from school should be no problem...
but she do not let me do so...
her leg was pain...
i feel that my heart was penetrate too...
finally she left the bike in the house and bring me go by bicycle..
and we make it to reach before the bus arrive...
my mum left once my bus reach...
looking she riding the bicycle with her pain leg make me had a feel...
the feel can't be describe...
feel like i want to grow as fast as i could and fetch my mum...
i do not want to let her get hurt anymore...

Happy again~

Time shows 2.47 am...
but i do not know why i could not close my eyes...
after come back from Loke's house, i do my java programming assignment til now...
finally i almost finsih my assignment but there are still something i do not understand about the language...
i worry about my future...
actually i'm not very good in programming...
but i'm abit lucky than other coursemate because i had a chance to force myself learn during internship...
i scare when i go to work next time, there will be no lecturers guide us in programming..
i do not know how to solve a problem that i face in future...
that's why sometime i hope i will never graduate...
xD
oh ya...
just now while i doing my assignment...
i saw my room mate typing something in microsoft words with his laptop...
i felt curious so went beside of him and read what he write..
firstly i though is his blog..
but then i found out is his diary...
=.=
but he do not stop me from reading it... because he write in chinese which i do not know how to read... zzzz
but...
there are some words i do know how to read... hahaha...
from his diary... i found something that very happy...
i found that he is more brave than me..
he take a step that i not dare to take..
and what step he take??
mai kepo please... =P
i really feel happy for him.. is a good news for me because i going to have a room mate that smile always... =)
few weeks ago his face look bitter...
i can't even smile too when look at his face...
and now i feel better... hahaha...
maybe being of too happy is one of reason i am still sitting here write this blog.. hehe..
tommorow i have class at 8am...
and now time shows 2.57...
i better get some sleep now...
nitez to all~

"Friend 2"~

Time shows 1030 night..
I just came back from Loke’s house after doing nothing there for few hours…
Derrick told me that he feel so disappointed with his friend…
I ask him what happen and he starts to tell me about his story…
Two years ago they meet in the class and become friend…
In these two years he tried his best to help his friend in so many kinds of problems…
He fetches him back when no transport…
Buy food for him when he could not go eat…
Accompany him go eat when he alone…
Ask him to join any activities with other friends…
There are few times Derrick joke with his friend ask him to treat him eat…
He said “not much to spend.. Even a Mc Donald I will be satisfy..”
As a result what he said is… and goes home without eat anything…
Few weeks ago…
Derrick felt very tired and hope to get some rest and ask his friend to help him do thing…
His friend does not want to help and ignore derrick’s message that send through messenger…
Finally, Derrick had to finish the work by himself tiredly…
Few days ago..
He brings his friend to have lunch with other friends…
After finish their lunch… He saw his friend go buy another set of meal…
He wondering and ask him why he did that..
Without any reply, he went to a gal’s house where nearby of the food stall they eat..
Derrick realizes that, he bought the food and brings it to a gal…
At the same day, Derrick went to his friend house at night…
He found that his helping the gal doing the thing that ask by Derrick last few weeks…
He feel very disappointed cause the gal did nothing good for him and his friend willing to do anything for her..
While friend ask for help but he just ignore and even scold him back…
Suddenly I feel lucky…
Cause I do not had any close friend like that…
=)
Appreciate those who treat you good around before you meet someone like that…

"Friend"~

Today we only attend one class in the evening…
Besides learn about Java programming, the class make me to realize something too..
I found that different person have different status in different people’s heart…
Few weeks ago, I left my file in my “friends” house…
I ask him to bring to me in the school and he did it…
The next day, once again I left it…
I ask him to do the same thing…
As the result, in the next morning he brings nothing but only his bag…
I ask him why he did not bring my file and he reply…
The file with 3 inch height full of paper is too heavy for him to bring…
Ops…It’s 2 inch I think…
Today, arrive in the class, that “friend” is not in class…
Some of us were wondering where he goes…
When he back to class, my other friend ask him that where he goes and he reply nothing…
After 15 minutes he went out again and come back with a lot of paper…
He distributes all the paper to my course mates and we found that is a survey question…
At the moment I believe that all our course mates have same thinking which is “WOW.. These papers sure belong to gals”…
Hmmm… what do you thinking??
I think this is a normal thing shall performed by friend??
I feel that there are still a lot of things for me to learn to become a “normal” person…

Misunderstand..

Sometimes..
I tried to express my thinking and feeling..
But not everyone would understand what am I trying to express..
Misunderstand often occur between me and others..
Maybe the way I express is not clear enough..
Even the blog I wrote would make others to misunderstand too..
I believe if someone reading what I write sure will think of other things too..
Anyway, I would like to apologize to those who misunderstood about my blog..
I feel so bad cause giving you a hope..

I do not know how often misunderstand occur the normal human life each day..
But I think this words often appear around me..
Talking about misunderstand..
I remember the incident again..
Actually I have 2 roommates..
Around 1 year ago we 3 decide to move into a room..
He promise me that he would not move out because the rent was not cheap..
Everything was fine..
We live harmony in the house until 1 day..
He got a girl friend..
From that day start, its still ok..
I still remember a night.. Its around 1am and one of my roommate back hometown..
I came back from friend house..
As usual I plug in my key into the lock.. I push the door once I turn on the lock..
And I go knock my head on the door..
I found out the door was lock from behind..
That time I already very tired and I really angry this thing would happen to me!!
Then I knock the door till my roommate open the door..
He is sleeping with his gf in my room..
So I decide to go my other friend room sleep after bath..
After few days.. I heard from my course mate that my roommate looking house to move..
I’m so angry and disappointed because he never think of us before he decide..
Some more he promise us will not move no matter what since we had to paid around rm 200 if he move..
I act very cool to him after that and I think he do not know why I do that..
The most angry thing for me is I heard the news he want to move from course mate and he did not plan to tell me till the day he found new place to move...
But.. After time goes.. Especially I came back from industrial training..
I feel myself stupid and childish for treat my friend so cool..
So I would apologize to him and hope he could understand why I suddenly act so cool to him in some period..
I plan to sms him but I did not do that finally…
Sorry..
=)
I can’t afford to lost a friend for only such a tiny things..

Hidden feels~

I observe my class today…
All of them have their different love story…
Some of them love others but not dare to express…
While some of them know they have feel on each other…
But they not dare to accept the fact…
I ask my friend Loke who sit beside me today…
What will you do to attract someone that you like??
Well, his answer is simple…
Always look at her and let her feel that you like her…
But it seem like everyone will use this method…
I observing my friends and I do not saw that they looking at the one they like…
But…they will put attention on someone they like…
They will “accidentally” look at them, see whether the one they like is look at them or not…
Some may use some excuse to talk to their love one…
For example passing thing to others through the people they like…
This world is funny…
People like to do something that should not do by them…
Creating a lot of misunderstanding each other… (Maybe is their hobby)
For example making someone they do not like to fall in love with themselves…
But I think this is usual attitude…
Since everyone want themselves to attract by many people and like by other people…
This is normal…
But the unusual thing I feel is how come someone know they like each other but still could not close to each other??
Do they need to consider a lot of thing??
According to my sister, become a couple is not a matter of 2 people…
But is matter of 2 families!!
Therefore, she asks me to consider of their family is I found that I crush on someone…
As I mention is about 2 families! But how come my friend still could not be with the one they like although they never meet each other family??
Is this because pressure from other friends??
Afraid others will talk about them if they being together??
Or guy could not give the gal feeling of safe??
IF they could not be together because of afraid others talk about it…
Then I wish they would not be together FOREVER!
This is not cursing…but even this small thing they could not stand for it…
How could they face their family if there is any misunderstand between them…?
There is still a long journey for 22 under graduate youngster to walk in their life…
Wish all of people in my class found their true love~
=)
Jia you for those who still do not express their feeling to the one they love~

Helps..

Only lend our hand to those who appreciate it..
I’m not talking about they would repay us..
But at least they one day they won’t say
“I never ask for it and u offer yourself!!”

Natural~

Hmm..
I heard that a lot of thing in the world exist as “ying” and “yang” element..
There is black instead of white..
Male always exist if there is female..
The “ying” and “yang” always attract each other..
This concept makes the same element keep pushing each other..
For example magnet will always pushing away each other if both is negative..
This the natural of the world..
But sometime the world natural make me quite disappointed..
Since I came here, I found that human is same too..
Everything will think of gal first and how about friend???
Next time ba..
But..
It’s a good thing… xD
Coz this give me an excuse not to think of them if there is any benefit..
I am clear about which element can be trust and should be treat nice~
^^
And I also learn a lot from that..

story telling~

Everyone seem busy of assignment and exam this few week..
I think I suppose to be one of them..
But I do not know why..
This semester let me feel more relax compare to previous..
Maybe because I feel more pressure during industrial training..
Or most of exam were given study guideline and we just simply read the guide given..
Today I learn something new in my class..
Its about how we transfer knowledge from a person to another..
Lecturer said that storing telling is one of the way..
Story telling start from a person but not necessary stop by others..
When is the last story u heard from someone??
My elder sister like to tell me about story or article that she read..
I think the most story I like is related to culture of Chinese.. >.<
Do you know there are 2 persons and one rabbit in moon and do you know why??
Do you know why we eat “nien kao”?
Do you know why we eat “bak chang”?
Do you know why hokkien pray sugar can during Chinese New Year??
All the stories was told by my family..
I remember every word told by them..
I hope to share it here too…
But its too many for me to write..
Haha…

Learn not to care..

The first time I come to here (Utar)..
I tried to care everything around me..
It includes people and things that I do..
After 2 years study here..
I found that what I do is wrong..
The more I care of something..
The thing will become worst..
Sometime I feel I’m annoying of myself because of the attitude...
So..
I told myself to change…
No more care of everything around me no matter what happen..
No matter human or things..
I wont think of it anymore..
Hope this could make me better..
=)

What's the answer??

During the night while I try do my assignment, my hometown friend call me..
She need my suggestion about her friends problem..
Her friend has a boy friend 1 year ago..
Unfortunately the guy never contact her if the gal did not contact the guy..
Recently the gal is busy and she request her bf to send a encourage or supportive message for her when he free..
But the request did not fulfill by her bf..
“Shall they break?” my friend ask me..
I did not give her a fix answer..
This is because I feel that, we could not judge them since we do not clearly understand the situation and problems..
My friend told her to break since the guy does not care of her...
Is this the correct action for the gal???

Unexpected Activity~

Unbelievable that I went out whole day just now..
I plan not to anywhere because I felt lazy on morning..
After having my lunch, I found that my computer have some problems and making me lagging..
So I decided to follow my friend, Loke, bring his laptop for her sister..
After that we went to find my best friend Ah Nee at Sunway and bring her to One Utama since she never went there before..
We had a lot of fun there.. ^^
When reach there, the first thing we did is look for food court in the shopping mall..
Ah Nee haven’t eat lunch at it already 3.00 pm when we reach there..
We bought a lot of food there..
Fried chicken, sushi, kaya ball and many more..
The food stall not allow us to eat there..
So we had to eat on the bench which prepared for shoppers to rest..
After eat, Ah Nee suggest to watch movie..
Since batman was sold out, so we had to choose other Chinese movie.. (Forgot name) =.=
The story line of the movie not bad..
What make us surprise is at the end of the movie there is a sentence wrote that “to be continue”..
This mean we had to wait for next episode for the movie ending.. =.=
I never expect I would do such activities today..
But I did not regret for it...
=)

third~

Third blog of me..
I started to feel regret to start the blog..
Maybe I do not like others to know more about the inner me..
Today woke up so early in the morning because my class will be started 8 am (I always late for it =.=)..
With my tired face I walk step by step to school with my friends loke, ccc and daren (I would wrote down their name so I could remember them in future ^^)..
We could not find where is the classes and finally we was told the class was cancel..
Argh!!! The moment I really want to kill someone..

Proud??

They said when a person stay close to another too much, they will had almost same attitude..
Time tell me this is true..
After living 22 years in the world I found that human, especially guy would like to show off their strength in front of others (refer to girl) and hide every of their weakness.
Maybe this is called human being..
A person who firstly look nice would show their ego too..
Even some time I would think to be like that..
But I tried my best to hide it..
I not sure do I consider a abnormal person for doing this..
Although I try my best but the attitude will appear too…and I hate it very much..

Why Blog?

I did something I never expect I will do in my life..
I start the blog today after reading at my friend’s blog where he posts the link on his msn.
Every time I read other’s blog, they would use a very nice and pretty words which I always fail to do that..
For those who reading my blog please do not laugh at me if I had any grammar mistake or using broken English..
As Malaysian, I think that using broken English is a common culture..
Let me introduce of myself before I start any blog here..
My name is Cho Chun and most of people here calling me Ah Chun.
I am 22 (single).. Maybe I not attractive or mature enough..
I’m currently study in Utar (Petaling Jaya).. staying with my course mate from Malacca who I never expect I will stay with..
But I think is right choice for me to stay with him since he could tolerate with my bad attitude.. thanks to him.. =)
Well, I am from Penang (Bukit Mertajam)..
Please do not ask about my hobby because I do not feel like anything..
I feel bored to everything did by me..
So I had to look for new or more interest thing to do everyday..
That’s all for today..
Another thing is I do not why I start the blog..