my room's wish..

my life filled with game this few weeks..
sometime i went to my friends house using their computer since my house lagging..
everytime when i back, i would had to wait for 1 or 2 minutes for the lift to reach ground floor..
in the other situation, when i going out, the lift seem like waiting for me to press at the button..
ready and waitng me to go out...
im thinking...
do my room hate me so much and hope i go out and not return home??
everytime when i back, he seem delaying my time to reach him..
while when i ready to go out, my room seem excited and want to send out as soon as possible..

crack floor..

few weeks ago, the balcony's floor was crack due to weather change...
i step on it very carefully during collecting my cloth that hang at balcony..
as a result, the floor cut my leg..
since that, i forget the incident and collect my cloth as usual everyday..
few days ago, i realise that i do not cut my leg...
the floor is crack like before..
i simply walk out but the floor do not left any wound on my leg..
is this because the floor had change??
or my leg was adapted to the crack floor so would not cut by it again??
i do not know..
but someone told me before..
Penang people have a very high adaptability no matter in what condition..
i feel its right..
even in relationship problem, i feel we could handle without affect our own seriously..
at least i did not heard any of my friend was very down and give up everything around them when they brake with their partner...

most pain..

what is the most pain feeling??
is when the one we love telling other that they love them...
or when we look at the one we love treat other they love good..

identity..

sometime if our real identity or memory is gone for temporary..
it may be a good thing...
just like the movie..
=)

question..

i had think for few days..
if someone who willing to quarrel with other cause of us...
what this mean??

darkness behind pearl..

few days ago, my coursemate organize a trip to penang..
derrick, keat and me drive each car and fetch 17 people round the island..
during the trip, most of us sick..
my stomach not feeling very well because i went to Segamat and Malacca before i came back to Penang..
i ate a lot of food in Segamat and Malacca..
i really enjoy those trips...
i feel very happy...
but...
at the final day of Penang trip..
when the time we sent them to bus stop...
looking at them from outside of the bus...
the feel very uncomfortable..
we wave our hand to each others..
feel like this is the last wave from them i can ever seen...
the feeling of scare spread out from my heart..

stupid!!!

argh!!!!
i hate this feeling...
eveytime when this feeling present..
i sure will think irrationally..
my stupid immature thinking will take over me..
i really hate it!!!!
i hate of myself!!!
i want to overcome it..
delete it forever from my personality!!!!
please help me..
i scare fail....
T_T