chinese new year eve..

few years ago..

chinese new year eve is a very special and important event in my life..

this dinners bring alot of meaning and memorial for me in the whole year..

where all my family members gather and have dinner together..

steamboat is our dinner on that night..

when i was young..

we could only have steamboat once a year which is on that night..

i not very sure why..

but i guess is because there will be a lot of food and need many people to finish it..

due to working and study, it is difficult for all my family members to gather..



the meaning of this dinner stay with me for 18years..

it lost since the day she no more sit on the place and eat with us as she always do..

but...

the dinner still important to us because of my dad..

but this is no more a pure eve for my "family"..

Parent nightmare...

the feel of tired once again come back to me..
something happen and make me do not want to back to penang anymore..
few years ago, i heard someone said...
parent would not afraid, heartache or sad
if their children do not success in life...
the most sad thing for them is when they saw
their children fighting with each others..
all are their children and which shall they stand off?
as the youngest in home, what can i do??
find a chance to go other place and let them calm down..
huh..
this deed is such a useless guy..
but i really hope i could do that..

back to KL...
everything go normal..
until the day i ask him my friend..
"do u feel any regret with any decision you make?"
and he answer
"i do not want to answer"
and after few days, i was told that he had make the other decision..
decide to end something he had decide before its too late..
before the thing go deeper and deeper..
for me this is a brave attitude..
well
i wish he could find someone that more suitable..


*tired*