reject..

i feel happy with my life now...
but..
everytime when i lie on my bed..
i feel like i lost something..
lost something that i would never get it back..
something that might very important...
i do not know what is it...
i feel like to reject everything...

i reject...
i reject every incident that happen around me..
i reject every properties around me...
i reject to become one of friend among others...
i reject to born as a youngest son in my family...
i reject to act my role as a human in the world..
i reject to exist as a dust in the universe...
i reject...

i do not know why..